loving u..

all tis pic were taken during CNY..heehee...2day den upload cos was busy...haha...hmm...2day wake up damn late...mummy called me ard 10+ but i told her i'm too tired pls let me slp abit more..so she say ok..den i carry on slpin..woke up 11+ went 2 wash up den meet mummy go Northpoint cos i wanna go uob open an a/c....wee gonna get moi uob debit card soon..heehee..yst gt scolded by bao bei cos i damn careless la..hai yst was so damn busy at work..servin customer at the same time mus do ticketing..cos promo change again...whoa fuck!!whahaha..den while usin scott tape the blade came off den cut dao moi finger..was so damn pain la..show daddy kel den he look at me and say hai yo u ah..den i still can laugh..haha..yst work till damn late la work ot..ma de..den bao bei scold cos 11+ i still hvt go hm..yst reach hm ard 12+ heng i took cabby hm cos was too tired and was so late liao lo..die la i'm puttin on weight i think cos recently damn late den eat dinner lo...2day 11++ receive msg frm bao bei lol...heng i wake up liao...he so poor thing everytime msg me at the wrong time kana scold by me..well jus nw receive msg frm boyi tellin me where he work...freak...he ma de..work in california den ask me go...shit him say its time for me 2 slim dwn..otherwise no bf..well no bf no bf lo..i'm sure if he loves me he dun care how i look la!!well i admit i'm fat nia... T_T waitin for jie pei wo go see doc..wahaha we wanna eat diet pills..u make me sad and yet u still ask me i wan u anot..of cos i dun wan u as moi bf..afraid i might regret la..i onli wan moi bao bei...well he is moi da bao bei i am his xiao bao bei..tt's wad he call me.. =P nw hp ringin..saw bao bei name..saw his msg askin me how i feel cos he noes tt i'm sick..havin stupid cough and flu..he ask me go see doc but i dun wan..whahaha..den he worried la cos nobody at hm look aft me..hai mummy go jie hse stay..korkor work tml daddy going vietnam...oh sian!!told bao bei i damn sian la cos nobody at hm..such a big hse and nobody at hm..sian la..onli moi 2doggie at hm..hai...hmmm..tml workin mornin shift...oh no sian!!!hai baby kyan de 1month cele comin liao lo..2day went chip lee saw 1 bracelet damn nice mickey mouse de i'm gonna buy tt 4 him..

oh yes me and catty hao liao...haha....back 2 sister???she's comin 2 moi hse tis fri....whahaha...

missin bao bei..so shit haf 2 work tis sat and sun... =( haha...oh ppl dun mistaken we arent couple at all.. =)

luvwalkinsidebyside

love havin u by moi side

saturday was a wonderful day..he's swt...well sat meet jing hong and yishan aft tt we head dwn 2 audrey hse..while i'm on moi way i sms bao bei and tell him where i am..den i asked him 2 go hm 1st den he said ok i go hm wait for u..den when reach audrey hse we talk for kinda long..heehee...talk 2 them make me feel lyk we damn long nvr meet each other...aft tt we took some pic will upload them when i'm free..jing hong left audrey hse at abt 2pm den i left ard 4pm meet beo bei 4.30 at tpy..so me audrey and yishan took bus 2 yck den aft which we head dwn 2 where we wanna go..den yishan alight at bishan den me and audrey head dwn 2 tpy den bao bei came in..den he was lyk keep on lookin at me den i introduce audrey 2 him lo..den me and audrey carry on talkin..den bao bei was so damn quiet..heehee..aft tt audrey alight at douby ghaut den me and bao bei talk talk lo..haha..den we alight at bugis accom him go sim lim tower he help his fren buy memory card..oh ya he owe me 1gb de memory card...waitin for him 2 buy for me..yipee...while we're shoppin lots of things happen..erm its swt nia..heehee...den we went hm ard 9+ he send me hm be4 he go hm..as for yst wake up damn earli cos bao bei la stupid ass smsed me damn earli..yst frm mornin we smsed till 10pm be4 i go malaysia..whoa!!power la!!went malaysia 2 pray nia den came out at ard 2+ bao bei already slept liao as for me i still came hm 2 pray ti gong..den tis mornin de 4am den slp..but stupid bao bei at fault again la smsed me and woke me up at 11.30 *grr* den i wake up liao went 2 wash up den go jiejie hse mom mom...stupid bao bei realli hor i gt nth 2 say..2day 1+ stay at jie hse till jus nw 8pm den come back..nw so lonely nobody at hm again...daddy went 2 drive taxi korkor still workin..but nvm la..haha..still gt bao bei pei wo sms and yishan chattin wif me in msn..log in 2 msn saw catty online...dun dare 2 say hi 2 her..well she told me 2 walk out of each other's life i respect her..i realli dono y we will end up lyk tis..but nvm wish u all the best wif yr baby..

sick sick...

hmm...nw nobody at hm except me..kor went 2 malaysia papa went 2 drive taxi...was so kinda sian...hse so big onli me alone..told boi abt it and he call me and chat..we chat for abt an hr plus be4 i keep askin him 2 go and slp..well we chat abt lots of things but its lyk weird??die la he makes me fall for him even more..wheneva i say abt 1 thing he will ask me u she de meh?oh no!!of cos i bu she de la..ma de..when i ask him back he also say he bu she de..oh no oh no..hai he is sick and i am also sick..oh oh meetin him tml...haha..givin him some surprise.. =p wonderin will he be shock?heehee...hmmm...jus nw 6pm smsed me ask me wanna go out ma?and i ask him go wif?den he say of cos jus him la arbo still wan who...den i was lyk ma de how i noe la..so agreed 2 meet him tml but will be going 2 moi nite class fren hse 1st so boiboi wil haf 2 wait for me...whahaha...hopefulli tml can take picpic and upload...whahahaha....huh tt day went 2 watch norbit wif him xiao di and zhenzhen...the ambience was kinda weird..haha....oh lots of things happened on tt day which made me laugh lyk siao...haha....but there's also some bad things going on..1st i haf 2 apologise 2 catty i think we haf some misunderstanding...i'm sorrie gal its nt tt i dun allow eric 2 moi hse..i noe u wanna come but i duno the time..i'm sorrie its nt tt i put boi in the 1st place...well u noe dunt u?we haf agree wif each other tt we would nt let their matter get in bwt us rite?but nw it seems tt something is wrong..

hmmm....i'm lookin forward 2 tml...haha...well i need 2 go slp liao veri tired le..if dun slp i'm gonna get scolded by him...bb...nitex.....

luvwalkinsidebysidewifu

baby baby

baby seems 2be veri tired huh??he's slpin soundly..took his pic quitely..shh..

see he's yawnin..mummy seems 2 be veri happy..haha..

of cos its moi turn 2 carry precious baby boi..compare moi face 2 his..haha..he's soso damn cute..muack..


aft tt we push him back 2 the nursery cos we go for lunch too hungry liao..den when we r back we went back 2 the nursery 2 claim him..see he open eyes liao..cute ba...heex...


isnt he cute enuff...hopefulli he can come hm tml..pray hard..

baby kieran is out 2 join our family

see tis is baby kieran..he's out 2 join our family..heex...isnt he cute??he's out at 8plus..den mummy called me told me jie gave birth liao..so called jie fu 2 send me his pic la cos cant go hospital see him as i'm workin..so cute isnt it??open eyes somemore think tt he noes tt his daddy is takin pic of him2 show me so he's baby little hand was holdin on 2 his thick blanket and he's posin...see his smile??kawaii ne...heehee...love him...wish tt i can carry him la..hmmm...well well 2day work daddy kel saw me he talk 2 me...as usual la...mornin i went 4 basic theory 2 and den forgt 2 bring along moi hp daddy kel called and smsed me..but i reach hm den saw his msg tellin me 2 go work at 3.30pm..so i replied him..jus nw 8plus met wif fuckin customer..1 auntie brought haircolor frm other store wanna change wif moi store..thus i called daddy kel and ask for permission.he say can provided the aunite give me the receipt..by rite we can change cos she haf 2 go back admir 2 change the product..so we make it an exception la..den she went back take product and receipt for me..den i look at her receipt i found tt there's something wrong wif the receipt thus i refused 2 change and i told her..she was damn angry she say she wun fake a receipt..but i didnt say she fake i jus told her there's something wrong wid the receipt its better she bring it dwn 2 admiral which is mike store and clarify wif the cashier tt serve her on tt day..and she kept shoutin at me till i damn angry and i told her.."auntie actualli i plan 2 change for u but yr attitude makes me damn piss off i dun feel lyk changin it for u"so she shout at me and go off..well its nt moi fault at the 1st place..U TIS FREAK JUS FUCK OFF MOI SIDE...JOLLY WELL GO COMPLAIN BA I'M NT AFRAID..so aft she went off i call daddy kel and tell him wad happen den daddy kel sAY jus hack care he also hate tis type of irritatin ppl..haha!!!!well well daddy kel dun dare 2 scold me de lo..go ahead and complain ba..i'm being badly pampered by family memebers and him..those tt noe me well will noe lo...even daddy kel also pampered me too much..i can jus fight and vent moi anger on him.. =P go ahead and complain stupid fucker..lalala..told him tt i kana scold den he called and talk 2 me ask me wad happen..den he scold tt auntie too...whahahaha...i admit i'm little devil la cos i'm being badly pampered by him daddy kel and moi family members...they treat me lyk princess so i'm lyk small little devil 2 those outsiders..dun ever make me angry or u haf 2 bear wif the consequences..

holdmeclose&nvrletgo

at last i felt more relieve

well results was out on 9 feb..i'm eligible for poly thou moi eng gt D7..lo..chose most of the sci courses...hopefulli i get in 2 nurse course..yeah at last i can go back 2 schlin life...study is better den workin...nvr choose 2 go out 2 work if u can continue studyin cos studyin is always the best..thou i dono how 2 appreciate it when i'm in moi sec sch days...nw i regret when past year i failed moi O's and haf 2 retake..durin the time i was thinkin fuck sch is still the best thou we cant dye hair den gt lots of fuckin strict rules..nw gt moi results noe tt i can start sch again i feel so happy...well get moi pay i haf 2 buy moiself the billabong de bag liao tt's wad i had eye on for quite long..well i haf said tt i wanna dye moi hair..nw i had changed moi mind i do nt wan 2 dye liao..haha...wanna be a gd girl..jus nw went 2 moi aunt's hse den moi cousin was there told her 2 help me cut moi hair make the bottom thinner..haha...nw feel tt moi head is jus so light.. =) jus nw went 2 cele mummy's b'day..went 2 seefood restuarant..whoa..we had crab,prawn,sea cumumber,noodles and steam fish...it was damn great...wad a sumptious meal we haf.. =) tml going ssdc for theory 2 tis time mus bring along moi jacket otherwise it will be freezin cold for me den boi will scold..haha...

holdmeclose2u

few more hrs 2 the time of o lvl results..

feelin stress..havin fear in moi heart..boomin moi hse wif loud music in order 2 release moi stress...but i dono y the stress is still there...i can feel tt moi hand is trembling..well few more hrs 2 go be4 moi o lvl result will be out..nw here i am sittin here and stare in2 the comp..moi mind is all blank...woke up at 8 yst nite 1+ den slp...i cant realli slp well...i'm scare...tis mornin moi bro told me all the best and i was lyk thanks..cos tis is wad i need nw...support...but i dono i'm in great dilemma...i'm scare...2 and half hrs 2 go...tis is a torture when u haf 2 wait 4 results 2 be out...sitting there and nth 2 do..nw i sit also cant sit properly stand also walk here and there..i'm realli scare...can anybody help me??well i noe nobody can...nw onli god can help me...prayin hard tt i'll pass moi eng....pls let me pass........

prayinhardisallicandonw

the previous day went for moi basic theory lesson 1..boi noes tt i need 2wake up at 7.20am den scare i overslept cos previous day work till quite late den he didnt tell me he will wake me up lo..den 7.15 he sms me mornin blabla..den i wake up liao didnt reply him..den he sms me ask me wake up liao ma call me dun be lazy..haha..den i say ya wake up liao..den he say ok..hai...tis few days didnt had a gd rest lo..cos cant realli get 2 slp..result out tml..scare scare..2day went 2 work daddy kel was lyk lookin at me den ask me y i lyk veri tired..thus told him wad happen la..den he tell me nt 2 stress moiself i can make it de..hai...i dono la...i realli scare la!!tml 2.30pm log in 2 seab 2 check..i scare lei..hai stress...jus nw sms wif boi he told me 2 relax...well jus nw also receive daddy kel sms askin me 2 rest well and relax dun think too much...hmm......and i told them ok i will try nt 2 think too much and haf an earli nite..but nw here i am still bloggin..if boi noe sure i kana scold..hopefulli tml i will get gd grades!!!!!!!STRESS STRESS STRESS.....alot of ppl waiting for moi call tml...daddy kel,ah boi,sin hui,susan,zhenzhen and mike...zhenzhen say she will help me pray hard..oh no...scare scare...

PLEASE LET ME PASS.....ARGGGGGGGGG..........

PRAYIN HARD...

holdmeclose2u&nvrletgo

stress results comin

yst knew tt will get result on fri den korkor ask me so how will pass ma?i replied:"i duno dun ask me".den he told me:"well u duno rite,u dun lyk study den dun waste money dun study den".den i straight away off moi comp went 2 slp..i lie on moi bed thinkin..how if i fail how?will i pass?if i fail shld i die?i also dun wish 2 fail de ma..who wish themself 2 fail the exam?i had already done moi best..its nt tt i didnt study..aft all tis thinkin gone thru moi mind i cried..duno why tears jus flow out..den tis mornin receive boi de sms sayin sorrie 2 me cos yst he too busy nvr reply moi sms..but i didnt reply him cos i too tired and went back 2 slp..den woke up at 10 wash moi face drink coffee den watch tv den sms boi..ard 10.45 go bring nai hm lo..helped mummy bake pineapple tart in order 2 keep moiself busy so tt i wun think abt moi results lo..nw here i am bloggin..chat wif boyi and hung in msn..tellin them abt moi results tellin them tt i scare..well boyi say he trust tt i will pass...hai i also duno..i scare eng..hmm...check ssdc de basic theory lesson de schedule..tml mornin lesson 1 at 8.35 am till 9.20am going 4 tml de lesson since aftnoon i den start workin..well well tml aft ssdc lesson i wanna go CK department 2 look 4 silky girl de black eye shadow.. =) hai i'm feelin real stress nw wad 2 do?who can teach me how 2 relax...

holdmeclose2u_plsdunletgo__

damn tired and stress

went 2 work ard 7+ reach there late den saw rekha..haha work wif her cos kak fadzillah sick..so me and her slack la..heex..den ard 1 susan came..haha..she run away frm sch den came 2look 4us..den we chit chat..den daddy kel called and tell me he wun be comin 2 work..poor poor daddy kel sick for almost 1week liao..poor daddy..den he went 2 see doc doc gave him 2 days mc..while he called back aft he see doc i had already went 2 the bank wif susan..den me go mike shop cos give him pineapple tart and choco cookies..den we chat for quite long..haha..he keep askin me 2 transfer 2 his shop..den i was hmmm duno...den while we r happy chit chattin mummy called tellin me tt O LVL RESULT WIL BE OUT TIS FRI and i was lyk oh wad the fuck!!den i scare la..den i kept askin her confirm ma??den mike look at me tot wad happen den he ask me la..den aft i hang up the phone i told mike..den he told me well u will pass de..all the best..and i was i duno..he told me fri aft seeing moi result i mus tell him..arg!!!!so aft 30 mins chat i went back 2 store..den ayu bluff me say daddy kel on mc for 2weeks..and i was hah!?wad happen 2 moi daddy kel..den i run 2 the phone and call daddy kel..den he was lyk huh wad 2weeks u wan me stay in hospital ah is 2 days la..den i scold ayu...hahha..told daddy kel i fri cant work cos takin result den he was lyk oh take result huh..okieokie..all the best 2 u sure u can pass de...den i was lyk hai stop stressin me..well i scare cos fri jie nt workin liao she work till thurs den on maternity leave liao..den i scare la..fri if she sit beside me mummy also den i login moi seab website see moi result if its gd still ok if its bad??somemore its 2 days be4 mummy b'day...why why why???sian de la!!!!!!!!!!!nw i am damn tired and stress too lo...arggggggggg....WELL IF I DID WELL I'M GONNA REWARD MOISELF WIF A NEW HAIRCOLOR!!!!YIPEE........mummy gonna get a new hp lei daddy gonna buy for her...kao 2day saw rekha de LG chocolate phone was damn nice i fall for it la...well well tis year i pass moi exam i wanna reward moiself for the LG chocolate hp too...heex..

PRAYIN DAMN HARD TO THE GOD...PLS LET ME PASS...I DUN ASK FOR MUCH...AT LEAST LET ME PASS MOI ENG AND SCI....PLEASE..........................

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loveuonce&4eva

HAPPY SHOPPIN

moi new year wear...photos upload 2 show wad i haf brought 2day..

2day wake up 9+ went 2 bath den go shoppin wif jie jie fu mummy and lastly nainai..well we went 2 chinatown and bugis..first went 2 chinatown ppl park den saw 1 shop sell clothes damn nice so went 2 look look nia..den i brought 2 retro dress for new year..haha but 1 mummy buy 4 me..den we went shop shop ard for new year things aft done we went 2 bugis..well i gt moiself 1 black boots at bugis and also belts..heex...love moi boots 2 the core!!!its cute..aft discount its jus 32bucks...weets....den jus nw i wear and show moi jiejie and she say its nice..heex...*proud*wellwell heard tt mummy plannin 2 go hongkong..i told her i wanna go too cos i wanna buy boots...haha!!hong kong de boots is damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!yst receive sms frm him..and he noes tt i feel neglected by him and he says sorrie 2 me and explain y he didnt msg me.. =) he says tt he duno tt i will feel being neglected by him cos he did told me he will be busy for work..haha but i tell him yeah i noe but i jus duno y i cant get used 2 nt havin msg frm u.. =p yst korkor went 2 agnes b'day...think he mus be feelin damn shiok ba??ma de i work he still can call me ask me where am i..think he was thinkin of askin me go ba??cos ellen and annie also ask me 2 go..lolz...but heard frm kor boyi didnt go so i asked him and he told me last min gt things den he ask me i going??hai how i wish i can go lo...sian...when can we go sing??well wanna go slp liao tml workin mornin shift....nite...

holdmeclose2u&nvrletgo

stop torturing me

nw adays times past so fast...its torturin me..cos tis means tt moi results will be out jus any day..i'm feelin so scared..yst received letter frm seab sendin me moi password for loggin on 2 see moi results on the day of o lvl result..i'm so scare..i dono y..will i pass??tis is wad i ask moiself again...well nw adays fewer and lesser calls and sms frm him...noe tt he's busy workin but i'm nt use 2 it lei..feel lyk being neglected by u..2day talk 2 moi mum abt moi past..frm moi sec 1 relationship till nw..i told her i dun wan 2 go back 2 moi ex thou he treat me well..cos i dun lyk the feelin of being tied up too tight witout freedom..well i agree he had lots of money and 2 takecare of me but i dun lyk..i wan freedom i realli do..cos i wanna be playful and cheerful as well..i knew tt there's 1 person tt allows me 2 throw tantrum,be playful and well last of all freedom and comfortable wif..but will he be the 1??i'm afraid it will nt...mayb i'll jus be wif the other??but i'm afraid 2 get in2 relationship again cos it hurts...the 1 tt i love may jus ask for break up..or is tt i ask for it cos no freedom..am i too much jus 2 ask for freedom and for a guy 2 takecare of me and believe me??dono y 2day aft talk 2 moi mum abt moi past i think abt all tis thing...i'm realli afraid of gettin in2 a relationship cos guys r jus undevoted animal..

ijuswanutoholdmetight

boring day

well 2day wake up 11 lo...cos moi baobei nephew finnish sch den came in2 moi room wakes me up..ask me bring him go sun plaza...den i wake up bath change den bring him go sun plaza lo..hmm...yst had moi new haircut...kinda love moi new look...but saw catcat de didi haircut i fall 4 it...ARGG!!!sudden gt the urge 2 redye moi hair color..cos moi hair gt natural brown den moi purple cant be seen...macham moi hair i dye brown...sobsob...but nvm la i gt those gd girl look..heehee...even daddy kel fall for moi look..haha..bleah... =P hmmm nw den sian so here i am bloggin and listenin 2 fan yi chen de fang sheng...the song kind of meaninful..hai tml workin lei...but nvm i will show daddy kel moi new hairstyle...heex...tml workin wif susan...yipee!!!!!!happy la...haha...jus nw make cookies lei tml bring go workplace let moi colleague eat..well...hmm...boiboi damn busy wif work till he neglected me...but nvm la aft all hes nt moi bf...whahaha....will i fall for another person??i dono...