come on lets countdwn 2 2008!!

yeah few more hrs it will be a new year!!let's welcome year 2008 tt means i will be 20 soon..haha!!wish for lots of things..wan 2008 2 be a smooth year 4 me..year 2 comin and tt means gonna leave moi classmates as we were told tt we wun be in the same class anymore..lata i'm gonna meet jen and jun ping haha..gg 2 msq cos wanna see fireworks...yipee!!jie ask me wanna aft tt go pub find her ma..haha..i still duno la..wonderin will piggy come meet me 2day??haha..dun wanna think so much told moiself tt 2008 all i ask for is frens 2 be by moi side attachment 2 be smooth everybody 2 be healthy as for me 2 pass moi year 1 and promote 2 year 2 get back the frenship bond wif moi sec sch frens hope i'm nt askin too much..oh 1st of jan is annie's jie b'day den 2nd jan jason's b'day and 11 jan moi b'day!!yipee!!!yes 5th of jan i'm gonna take moi basic theory test liao wish me gd luck ba!!i wanna hurry take moi license..haha...
to all moi darlings:if i haf eva did anything wrong be4 pls forgib me..i noe i am stubborn at times and may be a nuisance wad is past can we jus dump it behind??i promise i will change for the better..simply love u guys as u guys make moi day better..lets treasure the frenship tt we had ya?? =) love u guys..muacks..

nurses life

do u realli noe wad nurses life is lyk??those who think tt nurses r cheapo who clean other ppl's ass pls think more..here i am doin moi reflective journal which is due on the 1st day of sch realli wakes me up..i am tryin hard 2 forget abt moi posting..the bond tt i haf wif moi patient forget abt how moi patient struggle..the way they struggle realli hurts me..it is even hurtful 2 see yr patient leaves u..but wad can u do??u haf tried to save them but in the end they still die..it hurts more 2 noe tt aft yr patient revive he/she sign the do not resuscitate paper..sometimes it realli makes me think why they wanna sign tt..how will i feel when i see them die be4 moi eyes and do not resuscitate them..will i be able to hold back moi feelings for them..will moi tears jus flow out or will i jus tell moiself its ok its jus another death??tt day in the ward when i see moi patient collapse and being scolded not bringing back moi patient to bed i realli think hard..wad if moi patient realli die and there moi tears came..eyes well up wif tears circling in moi eyes tt i could see nth be4 me and jus tots abt wad will happen 2 moi patient prayin hard dr could bring her back 2 life..she did came back 2 this world but dr say her condition gettin worst ask the family members 2 come and see her..when i heard tis i fought back all moi tears attend to the patient and kept trying to talk 2 her 2 keep her awake..wheneva she close her eyes moi heart will skip a beat thinkin is she aslp or will she jus slp 4eva..i nvr dare 2 think of any negative tots..i dun wan moi patient to leave tis world..i wan them 2 be discharge and be healthy 4eva but i noe tis is impossible..fine i noe ppl will think tt i am silly thinkin abt all tis jus be cos i am doin moi reflection..realli i dono..nw i am thinkin is moi ah ma alrite??haf she been discharge??sometimes i realli wish tt i am hard hearted so tt i wun be so emotional..so guys pls treasure everything tt u haf nw..life is realli veri fragile..

to all moi darlings:i realli appreciate every min tt i spend wif u guys..i love all of u...all of u r always so important to me as u guys will jus make me forget abt all the unhappiness and create another happy story to moi life =)

com on tell me tis is nt true

jus nw i got a great news!!daddy strike lottery!!haha..he buy the no is moi chi age and moi god daddy age..haha..den he strike lottery..ok u mus be wonderin y he suddenly buy rite..cos yst moi god daddy whom is moi daddy veri long de fren or shld i say "brother" cos they knew each other since young..okie back 2 story..yst moi god daddy came wif god mummy 2 ask me be their god daugther den they went 2 buy me bowl as 2 realli "kueh wo" in tradition the god parents got 2 get a bowl for their god daughter den surprisingly they brought me a gold bowl set..moi god la..the chopstick gt savoswki crystal okie!!haha..so xin fu hor..den i serve them tea..so funni..haha..den yst 2mummys and 2daddys sit @ the dinin table 2 eat wif us..haha den they talk abt age and say wan buy lottery..den daddy 2day work till fed up he went 2 buy moi god daddy age which is 49 but daddy buy wrong he buy 48 and den moi chi age 21 so is 4821 and its the 3rd prize!!whoo!!den daddy so happy dao he call back and ask mummy gt buy ma sad 2 say mummy buy 4921 so there goes the money..den jus nw daddy came hm so happy dao he tell me moi b'day expenses all he pay!!he say i wan buy red wine buy beer buy wadeva everything on him!he will foot the bill!!whahaha..he say call buffet but i die die also insist on havin bbq so he say ok la..haha..he pay he pay!!tt means once i gt moi cheque which is moi previous pay i can take it 2 extend moi driving course!!haha..happy!!i'm flying!!oh ya 2 show u guys moi nicenice christmas pressie..

tis is the princessy cuttlery..haha...envy??
nicenice bowl rite...but who will use tt so damn heavy can..
damn heavy de spoon wif fu gui na liang ge zhi..haha..
see the chopsticks wif the crystal its real de okie!!
last i will end up wif baby kyan lyin on moi bed..he wake me up when i was havin moi aftnoon nap by slappin me pinchin moi fat cheeks aft i wake up he lie on moi bed..damn clever de xiao pang!!

jus received sms frm piggy..ya u r rite u r nt a perfect fren tt i am lookin for but u r a fren tt care abt me??haha..i doubt u..haha..but nvm la..cos i am happy 2day!!

i am so tired nw..

ah..yst chat wif shin aka adrian till 4+ den put dwn the phone..erm can say bring back some memorises of the past..haha..weird i can say..but he is still so damn lame and always end up entertainin me thou i noe he need me 2 entertain him..still the same he will sing 2 me haha..but its nt i psycho him de..wonderin r u lookin at moi bloggie i dun care i wan psp frm u =p *hint* haha..*coughcough* yst so late den slp and yet 2day earli mornin 8+ so damn noisy!!argg!!drillin here n there..cos they upgradin lift den so damn noisy dao i buay tahan den i try 2 slp but too bad mummy wake me up @ 9+ cos she wans me 2 look aft moi 2mischevious nephew..*grr* den i haf no choice but 2 wake up lo..hmm i duno tis few days is i suay or wad le..yst play mahjong korkor buy de new mahjong table cut moi hand den moi finger there bleed den jus nw help nai nai open pocky pocky duno wad happen i get cut again den bleed again..moi god la i tis missy onli noe how 2 look aft patient and nt moiself..

piggy i noe u will nvr look @ moi bloggie but i jus wanna tell u i miss u..seems lyk work is more important 2 u liao..u dun care abt me anymore??lesser and lesser sms frm u day by day..r u realli so busy dao u dun haf the time 2 sms me??will u come for moi b'day cele??i realli wan u 2 be there..
sometimes i realli wonder y am i so silly 2 wait for a person who dun even love me at all..haha..i haf waited for how mani years??thou u keep tellin me u love tis person blablabla and u noe i am jealous but den u still carry on tellin me tt..am i realli so nt important 2 u anymore??sometimes i jus wish tt u can be mean 2 me and so tt i can move on and nt cling on to u..haha...i noe i am silly..hahahahahaha....duno..i onli noe tt i miss u..

christmas eve!!

thou its christmas eve 2day i didnt go out leh..haha..so gd gal hor be cos i dun cele and nobody jio me out ma..so sad rite??but den i am nt sad at all leh..haha..cos moi god parents came wif meimei den moi god daddy help mummy do things den i talk 2 mei mei den i ask them 2 come for moi b'day den daddy ask me wad i wan..haha..well i wan psp!!haha..*hinting* whahaha...actualli i also wan the D&G logo ring loh..whahaha...okok i noe i wan de things all too expensive but i didnt ask ppl 2 buy loh..hmm...2day jenjen go malaysia wor..haha..yst i was so angry wif piggy..he made me damn upset la..cos yst we smsed den he told me he might nt come for moi b'day cos he gt 2work den i told him tot u say u wun work ot de den he say he will try hard nt 2..ma de la!!den yst i aft saw the sms i was damn upset..i didnt reply him anymore..yst online chat wif korkor den suddenly he offline den catty call me and talk 2 me den korkor so funni say i mus pay him rental fee cos catty talk 2 me..dots..2day hor mornin wake up i gt gastric cramp dao i cant tahan i cry out..den mummy hurry ask me go see doc..oh ya veri sad de is yst i dreamt of didi poh wei jie..dreamt tt moi b'day he was there but tis time i dun it will come true..we haf lost contact due 2 some reason la..his gf..i realli miss him..den yst i wake up i cried again..i realli miss u didi..still remember wheneva i am sad or something u will be there 2comfort me make me happy again..nvr will u allow ppl 2 bully me..nw le??i noe i need 2 be independent but i realli miss u..

family day

whoa 2day everybody @ home..so noisy loh..haha..mummy cook lamp chop,wedges,potato salad,sausages and calamari..veri sinful rite??haha..i noe i noe..but dun worry cos mornin till jus nw nvr eat..haha..somemore tml gg gym wif jenjen..haha!!veri jialat loh i am jobless..who wans 2 "yang wo" haha..think ppl will yang bu qi wo ba as wad the piggy lyks 2 say..Yes piggy always so busy till yst den free 2 smsed me..wad the hack rite..he tot i mia i tot he mia..ok la i noe i wrong nia cos tt time attachment den he smsed me i didnt reply..hmm den nw he work cannot sms me..tt's y i hate him workin there lyk he so damn busy..so nw tt means i can onli get 2 see him on moi b'day cele liao lo..i miss him nia..hmm yst i browse thru frenster den saw tt he add the person me and the who hate de..*grr* tml gg 2 take moi basic theory again cos tt day i fail i get 41/50 ma de la..dun worry tml will pass de i study till veri hard!!!!!

piggy piggy i miss u_____

i'm gonna rot!!

feelin rather bored..gonna rot soon..yst met jen 7pm go chinatown get sharon's present den go SGH gib her a big surprise..haha..gt jen me and alice..we hid @ a corner den 9pm i called sharon see she finnish work le ma?den she pick up i ask her chat wif me say i veri bored..den i saw her den i walk behind her den i surpirse her..haha she was lyk a why r u here?yr fren or who in hospital??den i say ya lo moi fren @ hospital den i ask her pei wo go cheers den as we walk i turn her 2face jen and alice den she was surprised..haha..tot she will cry but she didnt loh..hai..haha...seriously i am gg 2 rot liao..no job time pass so slow..yst cass smsed me ask me wanna go back work ma ask me 2 contact steph..but shld i anot??i realli duno..dun think she will even wan me back ba??forget it..i wanna go back sch!!sch is still the best..oh sad 2 noe tt durin our common test gt ppl cheat la den nw we haf 2 retake again..wad the hack!!so nw i need 2 study again..hate it..esp aap nia..will kill me de lo..all moi brain cells dead..haha..hai nth new 2 update..so sian!!!!!!

see moi baby kyan so guai lan..xiao ah beng..haha..
flowery 2 each of us given by darlin jen..
the bag tt we buy for sharon!!haha..for tis bag i quarrel wif jen due 2 different decision..
i edit de..haha..looks lyk sharon..tis is the cake for sharon!!haha..
the 4 of us..alice me sharon and jen @ SGH..

any job lobang??

currently i am so busy lookin for jobs..but den sad 2 sad seems lyk its so hard 2 find 1 lo..2day went 2 bishan but den hai dun say liao la..hmm meet up wif yishan and her elder sis also came along..her sis so nice lo treat us 2 lunch..oh ya i am so happy..mummy brought me the bebe tee shirt..haha!!!oh pls any 1 gt any job lobang pls tell me..jus nw i book moi basic theory trial test..wed mornin 9.15..power eh..since i am so free i can go take la.haha..tml meetin jen and alcie 2 gib our darlin sharon a surprise..whahaha!!!i wan 2 dye moi hair!!!see when i free i will dye..hahaha...hmm duno wad 2 say liao so shall upload pics..oh ya forgt 2 say yst moi cousin weddin is realli so fun!!he is so swt 2 his wife..haha..he kneel dwn and sing song 2 her..
me and jiejie..dun we look alyk?? y our eyes so small..me and mummyme jie and mummy..mummy insist tt e 3 of us take cos we look alyk..haha.. moi terrible nephew nai nai..i stick out moi tongue be cos he wans me 2.. me and jie was force by him 2 take tis pic..so we tot of stickin out our tongue 2gather.. since he wans 2 go backwards me and jie jus took wifout him..haha..me and baby nephew kyan..took when we reach hm..he looks so sleepy and i am a bit drunk.. daddy piggyback nainai..haha!!so funni la..daddy also kind of drunk too.. i can be formal at times 2 ways 2 wear a scarf when i am serious see moi fake eyelashes gt diamond de orh!!haha... moi best buddy fangqi..we go thru thick and thin 2gather within the 2wks of attachment how sad i can be when i think of moi attachment.. moi lovely donuts brought @ Novena donut factory loves double chocos jellyfish..i tot de loh..haha..underwater world!! tis is nice!!its real de okie..
see tis..its a new 1..sentosa de song of the sea!!

see tis ba!!its fireworks!!

ok enuff of moi rubbish..haha..i gonna go watch moi why why love!piggy i realli miss u..i am havin holi nw..so free lo..but seems lyk no sms frm u..r u realli tt busy..

happy stress free sat!!

i jus love today..free frm all those stress tt i haf been facin during attachment..i am so fresh nw..haha..unlyk all those days when i am havin attachment..nw i feel so fresh and energetic..guess wad yst i 1+ am den went 2 slp..chat wif meow meow,korkor,shin,zhen and piggy thru msn..haha..was so happy when i saw piggy online cos so long didnt talk 2 him liao miss him so much..haha..but too bad he use his hp 2online den keep on and off till i am so fed up i smsed him den he reply till halfway duno wad happen didnt reply me liao..think he drop dead liao ba..guess wad 2day i 11+ den wake up leh..power ba..haha..so shiok loh..heehee..hmm lata i need 2do moi attachment de reflection liao..wad the hell...so tao yan..hei guys help me pray tt i get gd results ya??i dun ask for much jus a pass or at least a C..hmm nw i haf been savin money for sat haha..cos i wan 2 buyu dress and cardigan frm bugis all so damn cheap la jus 10bucks..haha..sun i wanna dye hair..who will dye for me?shld i go moi hairstylist place and dye??i reali duno leh cos i wan damn bright colors..haha...i wan those ang moh hair color..heehee...those gatsby bright haircolor..haha!!!hmm lata nite time gg 2 cele daddy's b'day but is in advance la cos mummy gg 2 malaysia on daddy's b'day..hmm mummy go malaysia tt time i'll be alone leh so ke lian hor..hmm k ba i wanna go off le..bb..

tis time postin is lyk hell 2 me

seriously speakin i hate tis time postin!!ward 8D is jus lyk hell 2 me..1st day onli get scolded upside dwn..2rd day get scolded by nurse educator 3rd day 1patient attempt suicide 4th day get 1 tight slap frm patient den today get scolded by CI tell me whose life can eva be worst den me??jus hate moi tis time de attachment thou i get 2 noe a fren who is always there for me when i need help..i think if i were 2 stay in tt ward any longer i will soon fall into depressed mood and need treatment liao..recently i am so tired and stress up wif attachment loh..everyday reach hm half dead tell mummy i dun lyk the postin..well nvm 1 more wk of torture and i'll be free!!argg i haf lots of things 2 do loh..CI wants us 2 pass up 4reflections,den 3 assignments on case study den everytime she will come over and test us on our bed side case study..wad the fuck rite!!i am so stress up wif all tis shit!nxt wk moi whole schedule is morning shift!haha..power rite i sure die!!cos mornin shift too mani things 2 do..nvm dun think so much i dun wish much jus wan moi attachment 2 pass!!!i haf so mani pics 2 upload la..haha..gt zhen b'day de and marathon de..anyway 2 tell ya guys..i love the stayin in sch cos wif moi peeps its jus so fun thou its tiring..here r the pics..

saw tis frm j-son blog..tis is how rough i can be..haha..totally no image when i take pic..haha..
see i am already so short yet i still wan 2 bend dwn..haha..
love canon!!!whoa!!cool rite?
took on 30nov..be4 i go meet zhen 2 cele her advanced b'day..
i jus love cam-whoring..
how come i so emo??
moi last dolly look cos aft tis pic the next day which is 1st dec i gt moi new haircut
i jus love 2 dress up..tts me..
its me and zhen(moi sec sch fren noe her for 7years)
see her pathetic face lyk as if i bullied her..
we can be gd 2 each other too..
took on 1st dec aft moi hairscalp treatment and haircut..
8+ on the bus gg back 2 sch for the 2007 marathon thinggy..
baby alice and me at the LT..tis is where we stay overnite at..
she looks so sleepy..i noe moi hair look abit lian la tts wad they say but they say its nice!!haha..
sry yi jia i didnt mean 2 cut off yr head..
at last gt u in!!haha..noe her frm the 1st day of sch moi orientation fren..
tis is the shirt given by standard chartered..all medical nurses haf 2 wear..
i was tryin 2 be rough de la den alice didnt take full view..dots..haha..
i noe we r all siaos..pardon us k?cos who can still be fine durin 12am??
baby alice and me..haha..we jus love 2 take pic..or is it i force her to??shes realli veri carin de ok!!
see her leg so swollen..its baby alice leg..she hit onto her table den here is her pig leg..
tis is our cap..sch of health sciences!!haha..proud la!!
medical tag!!
full gear..haha.. see tis is how we survive durin the stayover thinggy in sch..bus came onli at 2+ den we sit in the dark eat play chat..haha..jus 2 keep us awake..poor thing rite??
baby alice and moi reflect..can u see she is too tired 2 even hold her head..she lean on moi shoulder..lazy bum..
alice me and jen in the toilet at 2am 2 wash up..
see jen hand..haha..she jus dun wan let me take pic..why so bad..1st time 2am still in sch of cos mus let me cam whore awhile ma..
jen.me.jiali and evenlyn..the other 2 r frm other practical grp but we r in the same tutorial..they r gd 2 be wif too..
us again..haha...4 of us r being located at east coast..
tt is jiali and evenlyn de finger..
cam whore again 2 pass time..haha..
kumiko and baby alice..
wdit thanks 2 me..haha..we r all frm the same tutorial grp..bunsh of siaokias..
tis is taken yst..can see how tired i am la hor..haha..
moi baby kyan..haha..he actualli sittin at 1corner emo de den i wanna take pic he startin crawling..
damn cute rite?so innocent..haha..he noes how 2 call jiejie liao..haha..

2day i slp dao lyk pig la..haha..aft attachment i came hm slp till 6+ mummy call me 2 call for kfc delivery den aft call i went back 2 slp again..i am realli veri tired..even drink coffee also cvannot help loh..useless coffee..lata i can slp lyk pig liao..shiok la..haha..at last i can rest!!tis few days piggy lyk dun wan care abt me liao..he didnt sms me..even i sms him also no reply..how come leh? =( sad la..i am bein neglected by somebody..i hate the feelin..everytime i am waiting for yr msg..thou moi attachment boreds me 2 death jus 1sms frm u can brighten up moi day..hurry up nxt sat i can meet up wif sharon haha..i wanna buy dress frm bugis den bring moi phone go repair den i wan dye moi hair!!haha...bb..