nurses life

do u realli noe wad nurses life is lyk??those who think tt nurses r cheapo who clean other ppl's ass pls think more..here i am doin moi reflective journal which is due on the 1st day of sch realli wakes me up..i am tryin hard 2 forget abt moi posting..the bond tt i haf wif moi patient forget abt how moi patient struggle..the way they struggle realli hurts me..it is even hurtful 2 see yr patient leaves u..but wad can u do??u haf tried to save them but in the end they still die..it hurts more 2 noe tt aft yr patient revive he/she sign the do not resuscitate paper..sometimes it realli makes me think why they wanna sign tt..how will i feel when i see them die be4 moi eyes and do not resuscitate them..will i be able to hold back moi feelings for them..will moi tears jus flow out or will i jus tell moiself its ok its jus another death??tt day in the ward when i see moi patient collapse and being scolded not bringing back moi patient to bed i realli think hard..wad if moi patient realli die and there moi tears came..eyes well up wif tears circling in moi eyes tt i could see nth be4 me and jus tots abt wad will happen 2 moi patient prayin hard dr could bring her back 2 life..she did came back 2 this world but dr say her condition gettin worst ask the family members 2 come and see her..when i heard tis i fought back all moi tears attend to the patient and kept trying to talk 2 her 2 keep her awake..wheneva she close her eyes moi heart will skip a beat thinkin is she aslp or will she jus slp 4eva..i nvr dare 2 think of any negative tots..i dun wan moi patient to leave tis world..i wan them 2 be discharge and be healthy 4eva but i noe tis is impossible..fine i noe ppl will think tt i am silly thinkin abt all tis jus be cos i am doin moi reflection..realli i dono..nw i am thinkin is moi ah ma alrite??haf she been discharge??sometimes i realli wish tt i am hard hearted so tt i wun be so emotional..so guys pls treasure everything tt u haf nw..life is realli veri fragile..

to all moi darlings:i realli appreciate every min tt i spend wif u guys..i love all of u...all of u r always so important to me as u guys will jus make me forget abt all the unhappiness and create another happy story to moi life =)