loving u..

all tis pic were taken during CNY..heehee...2day den upload cos was busy...haha...hmm...2day wake up damn late...mummy called me ard 10+ but i told her i'm too tired pls let me slp abit more..so she say ok..den i carry on slpin..woke up 11+ went 2 wash up den meet mummy go Northpoint cos i wanna go uob open an a/c....wee gonna get moi uob debit card soon..heehee..yst gt scolded by bao bei cos i damn careless la..hai yst was so damn busy at work..servin customer at the same time mus do ticketing..cos promo change again...whoa fuck!!whahaha..den while usin scott tape the blade came off den cut dao moi finger..was so damn pain la..show daddy kel den he look at me and say hai yo u ah..den i still can laugh..haha..yst work till damn late la work ot..ma de..den bao bei scold cos 11+ i still hvt go hm..yst reach hm ard 12+ heng i took cabby hm cos was too tired and was so late liao lo..die la i'm puttin on weight i think cos recently damn late den eat dinner lo...2day 11++ receive msg frm bao bei lol...heng i wake up liao...he so poor thing everytime msg me at the wrong time kana scold by me..well jus nw receive msg frm boyi tellin me where he work...freak...he ma de..work in california den ask me go...shit him say its time for me 2 slim dwn..otherwise no bf..well no bf no bf lo..i'm sure if he loves me he dun care how i look la!!well i admit i'm fat nia... T_T waitin for jie pei wo go see doc..wahaha we wanna eat diet pills..u make me sad and yet u still ask me i wan u anot..of cos i dun wan u as moi bf..afraid i might regret la..i onli wan moi bao bei...well he is moi da bao bei i am his xiao bao bei..tt's wad he call me.. =P nw hp ringin..saw bao bei name..saw his msg askin me how i feel cos he noes tt i'm sick..havin stupid cough and flu..he ask me go see doc but i dun wan..whahaha..den he worried la cos nobody at hm look aft me..hai mummy go jie hse stay..korkor work tml daddy going vietnam...oh sian!!told bao bei i damn sian la cos nobody at hm..such a big hse and nobody at hm..sian la..onli moi 2doggie at hm..hai...hmmm..tml workin mornin shift...oh no sian!!!hai baby kyan de 1month cele comin liao lo..2day went chip lee saw 1 bracelet damn nice mickey mouse de i'm gonna buy tt 4 him..

oh yes me and catty hao liao...haha....back 2 sister???she's comin 2 moi hse tis fri....whahaha...

missin bao bei..so shit haf 2 work tis sat and sun... =( haha...oh ppl dun mistaken we arent couple at all.. =)

luvwalkinsidebyside

love havin u by moi side

saturday was a wonderful day..he's swt...well sat meet jing hong and yishan aft tt we head dwn 2 audrey hse..while i'm on moi way i sms bao bei and tell him where i am..den i asked him 2 go hm 1st den he said ok i go hm wait for u..den when reach audrey hse we talk for kinda long..heehee...talk 2 them make me feel lyk we damn long nvr meet each other...aft tt we took some pic will upload them when i'm free..jing hong left audrey hse at abt 2pm den i left ard 4pm meet beo bei 4.30 at tpy..so me audrey and yishan took bus 2 yck den aft which we head dwn 2 where we wanna go..den yishan alight at bishan den me and audrey head dwn 2 tpy den bao bei came in..den he was lyk keep on lookin at me den i introduce audrey 2 him lo..den me and audrey carry on talkin..den bao bei was so damn quiet..heehee..aft tt audrey alight at douby ghaut den me and bao bei talk talk lo..haha..den we alight at bugis accom him go sim lim tower he help his fren buy memory card..oh ya he owe me 1gb de memory card...waitin for him 2 buy for me..yipee...while we're shoppin lots of things happen..erm its swt nia..heehee...den we went hm ard 9+ he send me hm be4 he go hm..as for yst wake up damn earli cos bao bei la stupid ass smsed me damn earli..yst frm mornin we smsed till 10pm be4 i go malaysia..whoa!!power la!!went malaysia 2 pray nia den came out at ard 2+ bao bei already slept liao as for me i still came hm 2 pray ti gong..den tis mornin de 4am den slp..but stupid bao bei at fault again la smsed me and woke me up at 11.30 *grr* den i wake up liao went 2 wash up den go jiejie hse mom mom...stupid bao bei realli hor i gt nth 2 say..2day 1+ stay at jie hse till jus nw 8pm den come back..nw so lonely nobody at hm again...daddy went 2 drive taxi korkor still workin..but nvm la..haha..still gt bao bei pei wo sms and yishan chattin wif me in msn..log in 2 msn saw catty online...dun dare 2 say hi 2 her..well she told me 2 walk out of each other's life i respect her..i realli dono y we will end up lyk tis..but nvm wish u all the best wif yr baby..

sick sick...

hmm...nw nobody at hm except me..kor went 2 malaysia papa went 2 drive taxi...was so kinda sian...hse so big onli me alone..told boi abt it and he call me and chat..we chat for abt an hr plus be4 i keep askin him 2 go and slp..well we chat abt lots of things but its lyk weird??die la he makes me fall for him even more..wheneva i say abt 1 thing he will ask me u she de meh?oh no!!of cos i bu she de la..ma de..when i ask him back he also say he bu she de..oh no oh no..hai he is sick and i am also sick..oh oh meetin him tml...haha..givin him some surprise.. =p wonderin will he be shock?heehee...hmmm...jus nw 6pm smsed me ask me wanna go out ma?and i ask him go wif?den he say of cos jus him la arbo still wan who...den i was lyk ma de how i noe la..so agreed 2 meet him tml but will be going 2 moi nite class fren hse 1st so boiboi wil haf 2 wait for me...whahaha...hopefulli tml can take picpic and upload...whahahaha....huh tt day went 2 watch norbit wif him xiao di and zhenzhen...the ambience was kinda weird..haha....oh lots of things happened on tt day which made me laugh lyk siao...haha....but there's also some bad things going on..1st i haf 2 apologise 2 catty i think we haf some misunderstanding...i'm sorrie gal its nt tt i dun allow eric 2 moi hse..i noe u wanna come but i duno the time..i'm sorrie its nt tt i put boi in the 1st place...well u noe dunt u?we haf agree wif each other tt we would nt let their matter get in bwt us rite?but nw it seems tt something is wrong..

hmmm....i'm lookin forward 2 tml...haha...well i need 2 go slp liao veri tired le..if dun slp i'm gonna get scolded by him...bb...nitex.....

luvwalkinsidebysidewifu

baby baby

baby seems 2be veri tired huh??he's slpin soundly..took his pic quitely..shh..

see he's yawnin..mummy seems 2 be veri happy..haha..

of cos its moi turn 2 carry precious baby boi..compare moi face 2 his..haha..he's soso damn cute..muack..


aft tt we push him back 2 the nursery cos we go for lunch too hungry liao..den when we r back we went back 2 the nursery 2 claim him..see he open eyes liao..cute ba...heex...


isnt he cute enuff...hopefulli he can come hm tml..pray hard..

baby kieran is out 2 join our family

see tis is baby kieran..he's out 2 join our family..heex...isnt he cute??he's out at 8plus..den mummy called me told me jie gave birth liao..so called jie fu 2 send me his pic la cos cant go hospital see him as i'm workin..so cute isnt it??open eyes somemore think tt he noes tt his daddy is takin pic of him2 show me so he's baby little hand was holdin on 2 his thick blanket and he's posin...see his smile??kawaii ne...heehee...love him...wish tt i can carry him la..hmmm...well well 2day work daddy kel saw me he talk 2 me...as usual la...mornin i went 4 basic theory 2 and den forgt 2 bring along moi hp daddy kel called and smsed me..but i reach hm den saw his msg tellin me 2 go work at 3.30pm..so i replied him..jus nw 8plus met wif fuckin customer..1 auntie brought haircolor frm other store wanna change wif moi store..thus i called daddy kel and ask for permission.he say can provided the aunite give me the receipt..by rite we can change cos she haf 2 go back admir 2 change the product..so we make it an exception la..den she went back take product and receipt for me..den i look at her receipt i found tt there's something wrong wif the receipt thus i refused 2 change and i told her..she was damn angry she say she wun fake a receipt..but i didnt say she fake i jus told her there's something wrong wid the receipt its better she bring it dwn 2 admiral which is mike store and clarify wif the cashier tt serve her on tt day..and she kept shoutin at me till i damn angry and i told her.."auntie actualli i plan 2 change for u but yr attitude makes me damn piss off i dun feel lyk changin it for u"so she shout at me and go off..well its nt moi fault at the 1st place..U TIS FREAK JUS FUCK OFF MOI SIDE...JOLLY WELL GO COMPLAIN BA I'M NT AFRAID..so aft she went off i call daddy kel and tell him wad happen den daddy kel sAY jus hack care he also hate tis type of irritatin ppl..haha!!!!well well daddy kel dun dare 2 scold me de lo..go ahead and complain ba..i'm being badly pampered by family memebers and him..those tt noe me well will noe lo...even daddy kel also pampered me too much..i can jus fight and vent moi anger on him.. =P go ahead and complain stupid fucker..lalala..told him tt i kana scold den he called and talk 2 me ask me wad happen..den he scold tt auntie too...whahahaha...i admit i'm little devil la cos i'm being badly pampered by him daddy kel and moi family members...they treat me lyk princess so i'm lyk small little devil 2 those outsiders..dun ever make me angry or u haf 2 bear wif the consequences..

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at last i felt more relieve

well results was out on 9 feb..i'm eligible for poly thou moi eng gt D7..lo..chose most of the sci courses...hopefulli i get in 2 nurse course..yeah at last i can go back 2 schlin life...study is better den workin...nvr choose 2 go out 2 work if u can continue studyin cos studyin is always the best..thou i dono how 2 appreciate it when i'm in moi sec sch days...nw i regret when past year i failed moi O's and haf 2 retake..durin the time i was thinkin fuck sch is still the best thou we cant dye hair den gt lots of fuckin strict rules..nw gt moi results noe tt i can start sch again i feel so happy...well get moi pay i haf 2 buy moiself the billabong de bag liao tt's wad i had eye on for quite long..well i haf said tt i wanna dye moi hair..nw i had changed moi mind i do nt wan 2 dye liao..haha...wanna be a gd girl..jus nw went 2 moi aunt's hse den moi cousin was there told her 2 help me cut moi hair make the bottom thinner..haha...nw feel tt moi head is jus so light.. =) jus nw went 2 cele mummy's b'day..went 2 seefood restuarant..whoa..we had crab,prawn,sea cumumber,noodles and steam fish...it was damn great...wad a sumptious meal we haf.. =) tml going ssdc for theory 2 tis time mus bring along moi jacket otherwise it will be freezin cold for me den boi will scold..haha...

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few more hrs 2 the time of o lvl results..

feelin stress..havin fear in moi heart..boomin moi hse wif loud music in order 2 release moi stress...but i dono y the stress is still there...i can feel tt moi hand is trembling..well few more hrs 2 go be4 moi o lvl result will be out..nw here i am sittin here and stare in2 the comp..moi mind is all blank...woke up at 8 yst nite 1+ den slp...i cant realli slp well...i'm scare...tis mornin moi bro told me all the best and i was lyk thanks..cos tis is wad i need nw...support...but i dono i'm in great dilemma...i'm scare...2 and half hrs 2 go...tis is a torture when u haf 2 wait 4 results 2 be out...sitting there and nth 2 do..nw i sit also cant sit properly stand also walk here and there..i'm realli scare...can anybody help me??well i noe nobody can...nw onli god can help me...prayin hard tt i'll pass moi eng....pls let me pass........

prayinhardisallicandonw

the previous day went for moi basic theory lesson 1..boi noes tt i need 2wake up at 7.20am den scare i overslept cos previous day work till quite late den he didnt tell me he will wake me up lo..den 7.15 he sms me mornin blabla..den i wake up liao didnt reply him..den he sms me ask me wake up liao ma call me dun be lazy..haha..den i say ya wake up liao..den he say ok..hai...tis few days didnt had a gd rest lo..cos cant realli get 2 slp..result out tml..scare scare..2day went 2 work daddy kel was lyk lookin at me den ask me y i lyk veri tired..thus told him wad happen la..den he tell me nt 2 stress moiself i can make it de..hai...i dono la...i realli scare la!!tml 2.30pm log in 2 seab 2 check..i scare lei..hai stress...jus nw sms wif boi he told me 2 relax...well jus nw also receive daddy kel sms askin me 2 rest well and relax dun think too much...hmm......and i told them ok i will try nt 2 think too much and haf an earli nite..but nw here i am still bloggin..if boi noe sure i kana scold..hopefulli tml i will get gd grades!!!!!!!STRESS STRESS STRESS.....alot of ppl waiting for moi call tml...daddy kel,ah boi,sin hui,susan,zhenzhen and mike...zhenzhen say she will help me pray hard..oh no...scare scare...

PLEASE LET ME PASS.....ARGGGGGGGGG..........

PRAYIN HARD...

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stress results comin

yst knew tt will get result on fri den korkor ask me so how will pass ma?i replied:"i duno dun ask me".den he told me:"well u duno rite,u dun lyk study den dun waste money dun study den".den i straight away off moi comp went 2 slp..i lie on moi bed thinkin..how if i fail how?will i pass?if i fail shld i die?i also dun wish 2 fail de ma..who wish themself 2 fail the exam?i had already done moi best..its nt tt i didnt study..aft all tis thinkin gone thru moi mind i cried..duno why tears jus flow out..den tis mornin receive boi de sms sayin sorrie 2 me cos yst he too busy nvr reply moi sms..but i didnt reply him cos i too tired and went back 2 slp..den woke up at 10 wash moi face drink coffee den watch tv den sms boi..ard 10.45 go bring nai hm lo..helped mummy bake pineapple tart in order 2 keep moiself busy so tt i wun think abt moi results lo..nw here i am bloggin..chat wif boyi and hung in msn..tellin them abt moi results tellin them tt i scare..well boyi say he trust tt i will pass...hai i also duno..i scare eng..hmm...check ssdc de basic theory lesson de schedule..tml mornin lesson 1 at 8.35 am till 9.20am going 4 tml de lesson since aftnoon i den start workin..well well tml aft ssdc lesson i wanna go CK department 2 look 4 silky girl de black eye shadow.. =) hai i'm feelin real stress nw wad 2 do?who can teach me how 2 relax...

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damn tired and stress

went 2 work ard 7+ reach there late den saw rekha..haha work wif her cos kak fadzillah sick..so me and her slack la..heex..den ard 1 susan came..haha..she run away frm sch den came 2look 4us..den we chit chat..den daddy kel called and tell me he wun be comin 2 work..poor poor daddy kel sick for almost 1week liao..poor daddy..den he went 2 see doc doc gave him 2 days mc..while he called back aft he see doc i had already went 2 the bank wif susan..den me go mike shop cos give him pineapple tart and choco cookies..den we chat for quite long..haha..he keep askin me 2 transfer 2 his shop..den i was hmmm duno...den while we r happy chit chattin mummy called tellin me tt O LVL RESULT WIL BE OUT TIS FRI and i was lyk oh wad the fuck!!den i scare la..den i kept askin her confirm ma??den mike look at me tot wad happen den he ask me la..den aft i hang up the phone i told mike..den he told me well u will pass de..all the best..and i was i duno..he told me fri aft seeing moi result i mus tell him..arg!!!!so aft 30 mins chat i went back 2 store..den ayu bluff me say daddy kel on mc for 2weeks..and i was hah!?wad happen 2 moi daddy kel..den i run 2 the phone and call daddy kel..den he was lyk huh wad 2weeks u wan me stay in hospital ah is 2 days la..den i scold ayu...hahha..told daddy kel i fri cant work cos takin result den he was lyk oh take result huh..okieokie..all the best 2 u sure u can pass de...den i was lyk hai stop stressin me..well i scare cos fri jie nt workin liao she work till thurs den on maternity leave liao..den i scare la..fri if she sit beside me mummy also den i login moi seab website see moi result if its gd still ok if its bad??somemore its 2 days be4 mummy b'day...why why why???sian de la!!!!!!!!!!!nw i am damn tired and stress too lo...arggggggggg....WELL IF I DID WELL I'M GONNA REWARD MOISELF WIF A NEW HAIRCOLOR!!!!YIPEE........mummy gonna get a new hp lei daddy gonna buy for her...kao 2day saw rekha de LG chocolate phone was damn nice i fall for it la...well well tis year i pass moi exam i wanna reward moiself for the LG chocolate hp too...heex..

PRAYIN DAMN HARD TO THE GOD...PLS LET ME PASS...I DUN ASK FOR MUCH...AT LEAST LET ME PASS MOI ENG AND SCI....PLEASE..........................

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loveuonce&4eva

HAPPY SHOPPIN

moi new year wear...photos upload 2 show wad i haf brought 2day..

2day wake up 9+ went 2 bath den go shoppin wif jie jie fu mummy and lastly nainai..well we went 2 chinatown and bugis..first went 2 chinatown ppl park den saw 1 shop sell clothes damn nice so went 2 look look nia..den i brought 2 retro dress for new year..haha but 1 mummy buy 4 me..den we went shop shop ard for new year things aft done we went 2 bugis..well i gt moiself 1 black boots at bugis and also belts..heex...love moi boots 2 the core!!!its cute..aft discount its jus 32bucks...weets....den jus nw i wear and show moi jiejie and she say its nice..heex...*proud*wellwell heard tt mummy plannin 2 go hongkong..i told her i wanna go too cos i wanna buy boots...haha!!hong kong de boots is damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!yst receive sms frm him..and he noes tt i feel neglected by him and he says sorrie 2 me and explain y he didnt msg me.. =) he says tt he duno tt i will feel being neglected by him cos he did told me he will be busy for work..haha but i tell him yeah i noe but i jus duno y i cant get used 2 nt havin msg frm u.. =p yst korkor went 2 agnes b'day...think he mus be feelin damn shiok ba??ma de i work he still can call me ask me where am i..think he was thinkin of askin me go ba??cos ellen and annie also ask me 2 go..lolz...but heard frm kor boyi didnt go so i asked him and he told me last min gt things den he ask me i going??hai how i wish i can go lo...sian...when can we go sing??well wanna go slp liao tml workin mornin shift....nite...

holdmeclose2u&nvrletgo

stop torturing me

nw adays times past so fast...its torturin me..cos tis means tt moi results will be out jus any day..i'm feelin so scared..yst received letter frm seab sendin me moi password for loggin on 2 see moi results on the day of o lvl result..i'm so scare..i dono y..will i pass??tis is wad i ask moiself again...well nw adays fewer and lesser calls and sms frm him...noe tt he's busy workin but i'm nt use 2 it lei..feel lyk being neglected by u..2day talk 2 moi mum abt moi past..frm moi sec 1 relationship till nw..i told her i dun wan 2 go back 2 moi ex thou he treat me well..cos i dun lyk the feelin of being tied up too tight witout freedom..well i agree he had lots of money and 2 takecare of me but i dun lyk..i wan freedom i realli do..cos i wanna be playful and cheerful as well..i knew tt there's 1 person tt allows me 2 throw tantrum,be playful and well last of all freedom and comfortable wif..but will he be the 1??i'm afraid it will nt...mayb i'll jus be wif the other??but i'm afraid 2 get in2 relationship again cos it hurts...the 1 tt i love may jus ask for break up..or is tt i ask for it cos no freedom..am i too much jus 2 ask for freedom and for a guy 2 takecare of me and believe me??dono y 2day aft talk 2 moi mum abt moi past i think abt all tis thing...i'm realli afraid of gettin in2 a relationship cos guys r jus undevoted animal..

ijuswanutoholdmetight

boring day

well 2day wake up 11 lo...cos moi baobei nephew finnish sch den came in2 moi room wakes me up..ask me bring him go sun plaza...den i wake up bath change den bring him go sun plaza lo..hmm...yst had moi new haircut...kinda love moi new look...but saw catcat de didi haircut i fall 4 it...ARGG!!!sudden gt the urge 2 redye moi hair color..cos moi hair gt natural brown den moi purple cant be seen...macham moi hair i dye brown...sobsob...but nvm la i gt those gd girl look..heehee...even daddy kel fall for moi look..haha..bleah... =P hmmm nw den sian so here i am bloggin and listenin 2 fan yi chen de fang sheng...the song kind of meaninful..hai tml workin lei...but nvm i will show daddy kel moi new hairstyle...heex...tml workin wif susan...yipee!!!!!!happy la...haha...jus nw make cookies lei tml bring go workplace let moi colleague eat..well...hmm...boiboi damn busy wif work till he neglected me...but nvm la aft all hes nt moi bf...whahaha....will i fall for another person??i dono...

TIRED DAMN TIRED

well well...2day was damn tired..mister kel yst called and as =k me work mornin shift 2day cos he go CLUBBING..and i was wad the fuck....well he sha jiao wid me den he win lo..den i agreed...yst our new area manager mr ignatius tan came..oh fuck..i was servin customer and he called moi name and i was lyk blur lookin at him till at last he told me he is our new A.M den i was oh fuck..hahaha...den aft he left i sms mister kel..well well yst reach hm late den went 2 slp..ok i was happy yst cos take pay liao den i brought 21st century diet pills 4 moiself and brought glucosamine 4mummy cos she say she gonna finnish the pills liao..well she haf 2 admit i'm gd 2 her la..give her 200bucks and its almost half of moi pay...hai...sad..yst boiboi promise me tt he will help me find the song tt i wan..*grins*haha...well shall say abt 2day..actualli meetin mummy 2+ at causeway point but didnt cos daddy kel told me he will reach store at 3pm den i mus wait till ayu come i den can leave..ayu 2day came out frm J.B den jam la kao wait till 2.40 she den reach..den abt few mins daddy kel reach..den ayu wans me 2 go bank but i'm realli too tired den i look at daddy kel den i asked him go...and well he agreed to go..heex..den ayu hor stupid de la...used veri long 2 count 2 days de money lo..who ask her stupid la mix up all the money..den keep sayin yst i count wrongly how come gt so much excess..den while she's countin i sit beside daddy kel den i lie moi head on the table den there i fell aslp..den daddy kel was lyk stun duno i was so damn tired den he looks at me slpin den he told ayu i slp liao..den aft finnish countin money and money tally daddy kel pat moi head wakes me up..den he told me u so tired hor poor thing..den i was lyk ya i am tired..den he say okok we do handover den u go hm okie..den i say okie..den he hurry fast fast count money den see tally liao den he pei wo walk go bus stop den he go bank..haha...well daddy kel treats me gd..haha... =P sometimes i was thinkin be his gf also gd la..haha..well well i wun fall for him...cos i already fall for the other deeply..

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will tis break e bond bwt us??

u believe yr guy,i believe him...well its be cos we r blinded by love...hope u wun blame me for sidin him..well i believe wad yr guy says cos i knew tt some might be true or all might be true but i cant dun believe him...hope u can understand...i haf already fall too deeply for him..as long as he treats me gd and yr guy treats u gd can liao =) i realli prayin hard tt none of them bluff us..2day wad she told me i was stun...i was in a great dilemma...i haf jus pull moiself out frm tt sadness and nw i met wif another....cant moi life jus be happy??cant i jus feel tt i'm fortunate..why why why!?oh why??well me and she r jus lyk sister and yet nw??she hate him so i cant tell her abt him anymore..2day i'm so hurt when she told me tt she hates him..but nvm i noe i can understand..i realli duno y he will do tis 2 yr guy..I'M SORRIE...cant things jus work out the way it used 2 be when 2 four of us jus used 2 go out play pool shop all??i realli missed the days..we used 2 be veri gd..when during moi b'day he talks 2 her..the thing tt came 2 moi mind is oh yes they r frens again we can go out 2gather again..as in the 4 of us..but nw??hai...well recently i feel tt me and him lyk kinda weird..he will jus tell me he wanna slp blablabla..even go out reach hm or when he will start workin till late nite he will tell me..he agreed 2 be moi atm...haha...oh ya he seems 2 noe tt i fall for him cos tt past few days he smsed wif me and told me tt he guess i lyk him...well YES I DO I HAF FALLEN FOR U..but well i told him i did nt fall for him cos i scare once i told him yes he will stop smsin me nor call me..

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why r guys all lyk tis...

why??anybody can ans me..why is tis happenin 2 me...i hate it i realli damn fuckin hate it..cant men jus be faithful to their wife or their other partner??why they wan 2hop on 2 another ship..they knew the ship will jus sink cos it onli wants 2 wreck the other ship y cant the men jus hold on...why r they so dumb!!!i hate tis i realli hate tis..tis mornin jie told me abt something and i felt damn terrible..lyk somebody jus snatch away moi happiness and push a dagger in2 moi heart...well let me be frank u might see tt i'm happy and strong actualli i'm nt..tis mornin no mood 2 eat went 2 work late..holdin back moi tears...but i cant...in the end i jus surrender and let moi tears flow out..told boi abt everything tt happen and he consoled me..nw den i noe tt boi also met wif tis kind of things..he told me 2 be strong..and i promised him i will..can anybody pls intro me a job wif high pay pls!!!!!i wan back moi happy family..................................................... =( am i askin too much??


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stupid flu and cough

hate the feeling of havin flu and cough...yst didnt had a gd slp... =( cough and flu...arggg...but yst went out wif catty and boi its kinda fun??but dono wad catty thinks...cos yst she's in a veri dwn mood...but she bad lo shoot me.. =( so sad den stupid boi didnt shield me still laugh and play along wif her..so bad...took pic wif catty...nicenice pic... =) yst went 2 take moi polo t den went 2 buy baby gui and went 2 shop lo..aft tt we went 2 play lan game..heex..look at how boi play car car so shuang..haha..lyk the way he looks when he is playin carcar..den aft tt we went 2 took pic of 1sports car...damn nice!!but stupid boi used his hp take liao nvr bluetooth gib me.. =( aft tt we went 2 mac eat mom mom cos hungry liao..ask stupid boi help me buy food...whahahaha...den while eating i stole boi de ring den i wear it..bleah =P aft tt we went 2 watson cos i buy moi bio essense de facial foam..den saw boi de mei mei...so pretty sial...oh well yst boi was lyk moi mario...haha...wadeva i buy i let him take..haha..even swt wrapper i also ask him throw..ok i noe i'm bad 2 him..haha...but he nvr grumble he jus nag at me cos i cough..lolz..huh we went home ard 9.30 cos catty's tired and she hafin work nxt morning..so we took mrt 2 marina bay frm there we take back 2 yishun lo...den in the train catty play sudoku game boi play shootin game..as for me well i listen 2catty de mp3 den look at boi play game lo..feelin tired i rest moi chin on boi's shoulder and see him play..but 1st he sit kinda far frm me..aft i rest moi chin on his shoulder he sits closer 2 me...lolz...den he keep askin me the train reach wher liao lo..den when the train reach orchard i ask boi will i see kai li's mum who noes i realli saw her!!kao!!heng i nvr rest moi chin on boi shoulder..i still push boi away frm me.den he was lyk dots..haha!!den i show catty who is kai li's mum....haha...heng her mummy nvr saw me...she onli saw me aft boi alight...haha..well when boi alight i gave him his ring back..but he gave it 2 me..lol..den when i reach hm he smsed me tell me 2 takecare of his ring dun lost it cos its his bao bei and its hard 2 find tis ring...lolz..den i ask him why he pass me his bao bei den he says cos i wans it...dots i didnt say i wan lo....buay tahan...

msg 2 catty...
girl cheer up k??sorrie wor...yst i realli didnt meant 2 make u upset by tellin u the things tt boi told me...realli sorrie...i kept it in moi heart 4 veri long and its realli veri hard 4 me nt 2 tell u..i tell u i also scare he will beat boi lo..but i dun tell u i feel bad..i realli duno how..sorrie...if u wanna blame me i gt no choice..i realli dun mean 2 make u upset...sorrie....hope tt u will get over him..


holdmeclosetou&nvrletgo

sick sick

Cough Cough and Cough...sian...throat itchy itchy...feel lyk scratchin it lo..wake up 6am dun feel lyk going 2 work but duno who's workin so no choice pull moiself up and haf a bath...received boi smsed..lolz...den we smsed till ard 9 lo..den receive catty's smsed tellin me she can enrol for drivin...yipee!!tml pei her go ssdc but boi say he duno will pei us go ma he will let me noe tml when he wakes up...haha...he's lazy...lolz...oh yes 2day sms was funni...duno wad happen we talk till gf there lo..den i say boi gt lots of gf everyday can change liao den he say i am 1 of his gf...pui!!!who wants...i den dun wan la...lata take me as spare tyre..anyway meeting catty and boi so happy...yeah!!!!nw i wanna go watch "shi xiong di"byebye...


holdmetight&nvrletgo

___happy happy day___

jus feelin happy 2day...haha...woke up 10+ by kak fadziliah(moi colleague)sms ask me 2 check moi pay..so i gd girl la wake up ard 12+ den went 2 800+ check pay pay..boi smsed me tell me he brought moi evo polo t liao...huh fast sial..haha..but he say tt person still designin moi logo..i felt so sorrie yst he smsed me tell me he jus finnished work but i didnt reply cos moi hp siao siao i 12+ den receive but i noe he slept so didnt wan 2wake him up so 2day told him tt i'm sorrie...heex...he didnt blame me at all..PHEW!!!nw moi tooth pain arggg...but nvm lata 2+ going ssdc aft tt go dye and rebond hair...yipee!!!!!!nw hp stop ringin cos boi start work liao... =( he ask me 2 takecare...haha funni boi...cute him..... =) meetin him on sat....wee!!!!!


holdmeclosetou&nvrletgo

2day i'm damn piss off!!

2day is a damn terrible day 4 me..thou it starts off sweet wif boi's sms..cos he noes tt i;m workin mornin shift 2day so he sms me ard 6.40 den aft tt we start sms-in each other till i reach moi workplace..fine even aft i reached we also smsed each other till ard 8.15 lyk tis we stop smsed cos he's busy wif work..so i carry on wif moi mornin work task nia..den it was kinda slack.i work wif a new girl called siti..we had nth 2 do aft doin facing so when ayu(2nd in charge)reach the store we slack...we look at magazines..aft finnish slacin we start 2 be serious and work..ayu told siti 2 take out the talker and 2 promo shelf ticket and throw away.tis is when things get worst and made me damn piss off..tis siti didnt look at the promo date all the yellow shelf ticket she throw away..some she throw in the rubbish bin aft tt she's "kind of clever"took plastic bag and throw all the talker and promo ticket in2 the plastic bag..she also throw the globber till i found out den i had 2 dig out frm e rubbish bin..den susan(moi other colleague)came and help out aft tt 12 pm kelvin(1st in charge)reach...den kelvin was damn fed up ask me how come ticket all in a mess why so mani things wifout ticket so i told him wad siti did..den i found out tt impossible so mani tickets gone..so i went 2 dig out those tickets and globber in the bin..DAMN PISS OFF IS TT I FOUND OUT TT SHE EVEN THROW AWAY THOSE PROMO TICKET WHICH PROMO ENDS ON 24TH JAN OR EVEN TILL FEB...so there i am haf 2 control moi temper and dig out those tickets and globber frm the bin!!!!!!!!while digging i am already gonna explode and there she(siti)is throw rubbish in2 the bin while i'm diggin!!CANT SHE USE HER FUCKIN BRAIN AND THINK!!THERE I AM DIGGING OUT THINGS HERE U R THROWIN RUBBISH IN!!AND STILL GT THE CHEEK 2 ASK ME Y I DIG OUT FRM BIN!!!U FUCKER ITS YR FAULT AND HERE I AM HELPIN U AND THERE U R SAYIN CHEE BAI THINGS...aft diggin out nvm i haf 2 recheck those in the plastic bag diggin for gold(HVT END PROMO TICKETS AND GLOBBER)..aft i haf all done i clean moi hand wif wet tissue and wash moi hand wif soap..den kelvin noes tt i am damn piss off he listens 2 me grumbblin and shoutin...i buay tahan till i sit there and slack smsed boi den boi was angry when he heard wad i told him but he ask me 2 relac..there i am workin and moi phone keeps ringin wif boi's smsed..kelvin dun even dare scold me jus let me smsed as and when i lyk..den kelvin keep askin me i wanna eat things ma..but i jus kept quiet and show him tt i am damn piss off..but tt dumb siti keeps askin me is it she did wrong things till i buay tahan i scream at her wif at the top of moi voice till she almost cried out..fine i noe its nt her fault cos ayu didnt say the instructions properly..but i realli cant control anymore..who ask her 2 be dumb come and pester me when i'm controllin moi temper..tis fuckin misfortune did nt jus stop..things get frm worst 2 worst..susan receive goods witout keyin in2 HHT and there i am haf 2 key in 4 her..but i dun blame her cos she didnt noe how 2 do..so i did it..but things jus dun seems 2 get right..wad eva i key in and scan its jus does nt show tt its being approved!!so i ask kelvin for help..he helped me den the 2 of us was lyk 'duh'!!wad happen why the PO and the invoice no is differ..so we figure it out till moi tears almost drop..den finally all done..when i tot tt all tis is jus gonna end its ard 1+ but kelvin asked me 2 stay and help them out cos 2day is promo change..so i did wad i was told 2..den ard 2 i was standin at the cashier counter serving 1 customer aft it was done i saw 1 crazy women outside moi store askin me 2 serve her..so i had no choice but 2 serve her..den i was also scare at tt time cos she did curse me once..den she came in 2 store 2 buy things but she ask me 2 explain all in hokkien but i duno so i asked kelvin 2 help me out..den who noes aft kelvin explain and go off she came 2 ask me again den i called kelvin cos i duno how 2 speak hokkien..den she scold me upside dwn..aft she went off i tried 2 hold back moi tears but it jus flow out..there susan and kelvin saw they asked me wad happen..den kelvin jus sayang me ask me dun cry..as for susan she was damn scare onli dare 2 look at me and kept damn quiet..den there i am went 2 the pharmacy table take out moi uniform and slam it on the table..kelvin was stun!!he told me i am nt allow 2 tell him i wanna resign!!den he keep on sayang me ask me dun cry cos i cry till damn jialat..cos i was thinkin y i work so hard control all moi temper and yet kana bully..1st is take out things frm rubbish bin 2nd kana scold...WAD AM I!!!nobody dare 2 treat me lyk tis lo...even boi also dun dare he treat me lyk da xiao jie and others!!!mike also wun treat me lyk tis!!!out of sudden i feel tt i am lyk damn useless...so i cried and cried non stop..aft stoped cryin i smsed boi tell him den he was stun..there he is consolin me and made me happy once again..den susan dun dare talk 2 me until i show her moi cheerful face...den kelvin was lyk keep lookin at me...den aft they noe tt i am back 2 normal they feel more at ease cos they had nvr seen me cried be4..den i told kelvin i missed mike again den he noes tt he did something wrong tt i am veri unhappy..so i told him its abt the takin things out frm the bin lo..den he apologise 2 me..den he noes tt i hvt eat he went 2 buy kfc 4 me and keep apologising 2 me..aft i finnish eatin i slack abit smsed wif boi he keep askin me eat le ma eat le ma...funni...den back 2 start work..2day work for 12hrs frm mornin 7.30 till nite 7.30 lo...nw i am damn tired...lookin forward 2 tml..going 2 ssdc book drivin theory class den aft tt go mich hse rebond and dye moi hair...yipee...tml thurs liao den sat meetin boi...yippee yaya yippee yippee yaya...haha...somebody owe me black polo t wif evo de pattern...